morning scripture study

very early Sunday morning, 1:20am 2/11/18

Good Morning Nate,

G tells me you studied the scriptures together each morning for a couple of weeks. I am impressed. I am in awe.

Have you ever been incapacitated by anxiety? My last two afternoons were like that. Thursday afternoon I was anticipating teaching our singles BoM class and Friday afternoon I was anticipating a date to our Ward Valentine's dinner. My life has gotten so peaceful the last 5 years since retiring that I have gotten out of the mode of handling daily stress.  I was so anxious I wanted to cancel.

My brother Scott'77 had kept tabs on me and expressed consolation that at least I had doubled my paxil starting Monday. He is right. Just imagine what a basket case I would be had I not gotten fed up with being scared and depressed and decided to do something more about it. It was a very long month of January for my psyche.

I listened to the sustaining session of conference twice in the last day. RMN is the closing address. When he gave his talk in conference it did not seem that monumental but now that he is the prophet it takes on tremendous significance. 

Hope to hear from you.

UV

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