Defensiveness

Good Wednesday morning Nate,

 God bless you!

 I am so proud of you!

 Full time job, prepared and blessed the sacrament Sunday, morning scripture study group, trying to fill you time with purposeful and uplifting and righteous activities! Yay for you!

 I wrote you last time about the specialness of patriarchal blessings. They are so special that some of my children never felt worthy to get one! Two of my three daughters waited until after they were married to get one.  I felt similarly. We talked about patriarchal blessings at church all through my Sunday School years but it wasn't until I was going away to school that I felt, "worthy or not I needed one."  So precious! I got to see what HF had to say to me, typed, in words I could read and memorize if I wanted to and stored in the church vaults in Salt Lake City!

 My son youngest son Michael'92 still does not have one. Karen and Jessica have never shared theirs with me.

 Next, I have been quite introspective lately. I listened to 5 apostle talks yesterday and they tend to make me that way. I wonder if my desire to be right and righteous has made me defensive. I wonder if I have to prove myself when I ought to just sit back and listen when I feel put on the line.

 Miles Vorkosigan is one of my 3 favorite characters from novels: Frodo Baggins & Sam, Horatio Hornblower, Miles Vorkosigan. At the end of the last book I read: Warrior's Apprentice by Bujold it had Miles trying to keep his mouth shut and accept and be patient. It made me wonder about myself. Since my profession was teaching I am practiced at expressing myself. I hated politics so that is one place I have never had an opinion. But the gospel is one place I have always had an opinion! It has been my measuring rod. I work hours everyday to help build the kingdom by indexing and reviewing. You can see how important it is to me.

 I haven't come to a conclusion yet. I will sit back and see how my tendency to defend plays out.

 Since these letters aren't playing a very important role in you life I am going to be silly,

 Love Uncle Skunkle

 :)

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